Full-Blown Agony: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with intense pain behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe agony around one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Paul Butler
Paul Butler

Lena Schmidt is a Berlin-based political analyst specializing in EU affairs and transatlantic relations.